“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.”
– King Solomon, Proverbs 13:12
We were planning to get up at 4:00 am tomorrow – and we were excited about getting up that early. By 5:00 am we would get into the car, and drive to the hospital’s heart surgery center, so that our son could get his heart fixed. It was scary, but we had hope that he would awake from the surgery with the ability for his heart to work the way it should. The surgery would be followed by rest, then several months of cardiac rehab. His heart would get stronger, and life would return to normal.
But about lunchtime today, the surgeon called our son to say that after reviewing the MRI test and considering the high chance of infection because he no longer has a spleen, he was cancelling the surgery. Just outright cancelling it. We were stunned.
Hope for our son’s heart to be healed has been deferred, at least for now. My heart feels about as alive as the dry brown leaves of fall. Today’s news was a bitter pill for all of us to swallow. Where we go from here is unknown, but we know who walks with us – Jesus.